Just In Case You Were Wondering...

I've had a lot of people ask me lately if we are "done." You know, done trying to adopt - if we feel like our family is complete. The quick answer is No - absolutely not! We both feel very strongly that there is at least one more little spirit meant to come to our home. The long answer is that we feel that Our Father in Heaven has something more planned for our family - but are not sure exactly what that is. I've been a a little hesitant to post much on here about what has been going on and how we are feeling about our little family but I am ready to write about it now. I know my words will not do justice to our feelings or the feelings of those I will mention and for that I apologize in advance. 

First off, those of you who know us well (mostly our family - not sure if anyone else even reads this - ha!) know that we thought we might be getting a little boy shortly after we adopted Cora. Long story short, we met two amazing young women with unplanned pregnancies at the same time and they both considered placing with us. One is Krychele, Cora's sweet birth mother. The other is another very amazing young woman who will remain unnamed on here for her privacy. In the end, we were given special permission through our agency (LDSFS) to adopt both babies if both mothers agreed to it. It was a really big deal to get that permission. After Cora was placed with us, we had to restart all of our paper work through LDSFS and get re-approved through them in order to have the baby boy placed with us. 

 And of course, as you can also guess if you read this blog, that sweet baby boy was not placed with us. It has been a very interesting process to go through. Many different emotions. Many spiritual experiences. So much peace!!

We have been fortunate to remain in contact with this other young woman and love her very much. It is an interesting situation. I've been asked if I resent or am angry with this young woman - no way! She is wonderful and has always been honest with us. Choosing whether or not to place your child for adoption is such a struggle. I would never fault a young woman for choosing to parent. That decision is hers alone to make. I've had people ask me if it is hard to be around her or her sweet son. No, it is not. She is a dear friend who we care about very much. She is fun and we love to spend time with her. I do not find myself sobbing and depressed - I feel great peace about things. Do I know and understand why we felt lead a certain way and then did not have them work out that way? No. But I do have faith that Heavenly Father knows what he is doing. He knows what is best for each of us and His hand is guiding the construction of our little family. We have met many amazing people throughout our adoption journey and I believe that there are many different reasons we are brought together. For now, we wait and pray that the next little spirit that is meant to come into our family will come. It could be soon it could be years. We do not know. But we do know that this will happen when the time is right. We know that our little spirits will make their way into our family.

I love this quote from President Joseph F Smith:

"Everywhere in nature we are taught the lessons of patience and waiting. We want things a long time before we get them, and the fact that we want them a long time makes them all the more precious when they come."

That is how I have felt about my little ones. They are so precious to me. I continue to learn patience and also love and gratitude over and over though this adoption process. I continue to see the hand of God in my life - see miracles happen. I know he hears and answers my prayers. 

So do we feel done or complete - no. Are we happy and content for now - yes! We have three sweet little ones who we are so very grateful for! Would we take another little one tomorrow if it felt right - absolutely YES!!   

I think that pretty much covers most of the questions I've been asked lately...just in case you were wondering.